Low

Surgery was yesterday.  I feel awful. I've been trying to get up and walk and work out the gas they pumped into me. Today is more internal pain. It also isn't helping I'm feeling depressed.  I dont know why.  Maybe its turning another year older and not having my lovr with me. I feel very low. Thankful for steph and Bobby.  Cera is coming over tomorrow to cheer me up. Then dinner with dana and then out to the rancg where ill be till I'm feeling better. I keep crying on and off and I can't figure out how to stop it. I hatr crying. I hate feeling let down and I hate feeling alone. Ugh I just need to let go and trust God. Hopefully ill feel better soon.